Simplicity

ok, onto happier things, well for the most part I think.

Kilynn went on a playdate today. She'd be wanting to get together with a little friend from preschool since it started, and I'd heard the other girl ask her mom several times.
I kept waiting for the other mom to make the 1st move, I was intimidated. But one day, I decided just to call her, and I did. It worked out very well, and I was proud of myself. So off Kiley went today, for a playdate without mommy. This wasn't her first, but a first in the fact that I hadn't talk to the other mommy very much.
She did great, and had sooo much fun!
It's just all so new to me..The other mom was telling me that it's easier for her to let her preschooler go on playdates with preschool friends more so than her school-age child. Because she sees the parents on schooldays, and the teachers know the parents, etc. It made sense.

Last week, I also went to a Tastefully Simple party, even though I typically say no to catalog parties, especially if I might not know anybody. A friend came with me, although I'd planned on going either way. Again, I was proud of myself.
I met another neighbor, who actually lives right behind me, she had two boys. I hope to call and get together with her soon.

This is all me--trying to step out of my box. Next Sunday, I'm even considering attending church.
I'll keep you posted on that.

So anyway, back to Kiley. Her playdate went great! I'm sure she'll have more, next time we'll invite the girl to our house too.
She's growing up so fast, really. I can't believe next year is kindergarten! I don't want to let her go. Really, I don't.

Did I already mention I was having Luke evalutaed Friday, I think I may have. So I won't go into detail. I'll wait until it actually happens.
I took a bunch of "baby" toys to a friend today. I had been holding onto most of them. I go through his clothes and give away most, only keeping some of my favorites.
But for some reason, I was a little sad handing over the toys. Some were even from when Kiley was a baby.
Lucas isn't a baby anymore, I have to accept that.

I struggle almost daily with the decision to have more children. That being why Ryan hasn't had the vasetcomy yet. Usually when I think of the reasons to have another, and the reasons not to, almost always the "not-to's" outweigh the other. But I'm still just not 100% sure, but really, will I ever be ?
Although Lucas LOVES babies, and sometimes I think he'd love being a big brother. But who's to say I wouldn't say that about the next child. LOL.
I mean, okay, let's say I have a 3rd, will I feel this way again when that baby is growing up and we've decided not to have anymore. I think regardless I feel bittersweet.
You'll probaly hear more and more about this; as it weighs on me at times.

I don't think I have anymore new pictures to post right now. That's unlike me, I know.